How can we fit into a world that basically fears us and what we stand for? It’s not easy, but once we master the virtue of discernment, we can actually enjoy living in the chaos. Once we understand our own story and how we use that story to survive, we can begin to understand that everyone else is living in their own illusions and fears. It is basically fear that runs the individual, the group, and society as a whole.

We can begin by going top down; that means starting with society as a whole. Society is composed of  group stories and fears resulting in a group mind-set designed to desperately hold onto the status quo. To maintain the status quo, society depends on control and power exercised through the institutions of family, church, education, the media, and the government. When being gay or bisexual threatens these basic structures of society we can expect a negative reaction. Fear will turn to anger and hate for anyone that threatens that security. Because hate has now been stifled by popular opinion, it has gone underground and resurfaced in inappropriate humor, indifference, or even pity, all of which contribute to our feelings of isolation and helplessness. We are even willing to accept the label of “queer” out of defiance and misplaced pride.

The gay movement however has made huge inroads in the basic institutions, to the point where the external fight appears to be basically over. Most families have accepted their gay children, most of the churches have welcomed us back into their folds, the media is trying to exorcise its demons by giving us special treatment, and the laws have been changed. But the power struggle has gone underground. The suicide and depression rates are actually increasing.  We have won the right to marry but our divorce rates for lesbians (gay men seem to do better than heterosexuals but there is some controversy about the results)  are twice that of the heterosexual population[1].  We are still suffering from extreme loneliness and many (and perhaps most) of us feel or have felt some degree of helplessness and hopelessness. Why?

I think it is probably because we are being tolerated and not really accepted by society. The fear often turns to indifference and even pity, both of which tend to make us feel isolated and misunderstood. This includes those we love the most.  Our loved ones tend to avoid the issue of our gay side or they question us as if they are trying desperately and unsuccessfully to understand our behavior. The uneasiness, intricate voice tones, and the body language that we perceive subconsciously is wearing us down. In one article I read, our mental-emotional state is being compared to soldiers who are suffering from PTSD.  Subconsciously we are in a battle for survival. It is not one big trauma but a lifetime of small traumas that have worn us down. We are constantly receiving negative vibrations from our heterosexual friends and family, and even from our own tortured gay companions. These vibrations wear on our nervous systems until we crash.

The key then is to use the power of discernment to become aware of these negative feelings and vibrations coming from others and take immediate measures to counter balance them with positive vibrations from our higher self.

Here are my five steps on discernment for bisexuals and the process of turning the struggle to survive into the joy of thriving:

1. First, we must realize that we are bisexual, that part of us is gay or lesbian and we must be aware of the struggles that go with it. That means we take time to build up our self-image and self-esteem before going to work, or church, or visiting members of our family. We have to be 100% sure that we are indeed beautiful and wonderful spiritual human beings. This provides a constant flow of positive energy that can balance the negative energy coming our way from the people who are important in our lives.
2. We seek those who are like-minded and like-souled for intimate partnerships. This can be a heterosexual, gay, or bisexual soul mate. It can be sexual or nonsexual, but it has to be within the higher self, beyond the urges of the body and the sorrows of the ego. If we have a heterosexual partner, we have to understand they may be struggling to understand and accept us just the way we are. We have to be patient with their struggles and realize they are trying to settle some of their subconscious fears. We respond gently and lovingly. Sometimes we or they may break down because of the triggers that may reopen old woulds. We have to accept that these will happen and that they are an opportunity to heal and even to go deeper in the relationship.
3. We must understand that our sexuality makes us different, and because we are different, the straight population will experience some degree of uneasiness when we are around them or their children.  We must understand that their uneasiness is based on fear and is subconsciously a threat to their beliefs and mindset, and therefore to their ego’s sense of survival. We must recognize their struggle and conflict of beliefs and emotions. We accept the uneasiness and try to eliminate the fears. We send our positive energy to them in the form of love to balance the negative energy of fear. We continue our relationships and perhaps even increase the time we spend with them. We use the time to naturally express our own feelings and encourage them to express and unconditionally accept theirs, while maintaining the positive flow of love energy from the higher self. Eventually the fears will break down allowing genuine bonds to be formed.
4. We avoid all forms of hate. HATE IS A BARRIER TO LOVE. We never allow our own fears to become anger or hate. When we experience hate (or other negative emotions) from others, we try to respond positively. Christ frequently talks about loving our enemies and doing good to those who abuse us. That does not mean we accept their hate. We simply acknowledge it in our higher self, recognize it is based on fear, confront it gently, thus providing a seed of love, and then immediately remove ourselves from these powerful negative vibrations.
5. With these foundations of security in place, we can try to reach out and make a difference in our world,  to change society one small step at a time in our own way. It can be a blog or a poem, sitting on a board, volunteering for a compassionate cause, or even being president of the United States. But is has to be done in love, bursting from a full heart that longs to share, balance, and change the world through powerful positive vibrations of love from the core of our higher selves.

[1] Schwartz, Ruth. Why Do Lesbians Have Higher Divorce Rates Than Anyone Else? (https://consciousgirlfriend.com/lesbians-higher-divorce-rates-everyone-else/)